January 2011
25 posts
The power of love.
BULLSHITTTTT. What power of love? LOL. Anyways love ain’t what you thought love was anymore kiddos. We growing older, we ain’t in Kansas anymore. Think about what you do nowadays. The more you think you can love somebody, the more you can hurt them. It goes two ways. The power of love = the power of hurt. I don’t even know what inspired this post, but WHATEVS.
PS. I might start...
Keeping high school friends: NO BIGGIE
Dude, I thought I would lose my close friends when I go to college, but JUST THE OPPOSITE. All it requires is a bit of effort. And if the other person doesn’t put in the effort, then I’ll put in TWICE THE EFFORT. I appreciate my high school friends so much more in college. Kay bye.
That awkward moment when you throw a grenade at...
UNNECCESARY
BEING SICK SUCKS. I FORGOT HOW MUCH IT SUCKED.
I HATE EDWARD
Stop.
And think Edward. Rationality is one of your strengths. Step back a little and be the observer for once. Breathe. No need to be hasty.
Love is all about attitude.
Just airing my opinions out there again. But is love all about attitude? I always used to think love is love. But I guess love is all about what angle you approach it at. In this case, I’m not just talking about loving your gf/bf, but your friends too. Do you choose to love them and constantly question that love, reevaluating yourself time to time even though there’s no problems. Or....
Tick tock.
When it’s 3:01 am and time is creeping every so slowly, it’s fun to count every second. I’m in control every minute, every second that is passing by. Time isn’t “flying”. It’s standing still for once. I’m not with friends, I’m not doing something fun. But I get to think. And that in itself is gratifying as time stops.
Edit: WTF THAT WAS MY...
I KNOW WHY
IT’S BECAUSE I CAN’T EAT TO SATISFY MY HAPPINESS. SHAT. I’M ON A DIET SO THAT’S WHY I’M DEPRESSED. Previously, eating was like my JOYYY. Haha. props to home slice helen for diet coaching <3
Disclaimer
Please don’t worry about me because of my tumblr posts. -_-. I’m seriously fine. I mean it’s not like I’m fake and lying, but I really don’t want other people caring what I write. I like writing for myself. I’ll be fine by myself!
I wanna cry
I haven’t done it in like forever. But I feel like it would solve so many things for me right now.
OpEn yOuR MiNd
I was talking to Eileen the other day when she was on break from work. We were talking about our future in college and what we were going to do. I’m a neuroscience major and she’s an undeclared major. Yet, she was so confident in everything. She has no worries. And that makes me jealous. I’m someone who’s always worrying. I just worry worry worry. I’m never assured of...
It's time to get serious.
I’m a college freshman in second semester. Sigh. I hate to admit it, but I’m growing older. I still want to be a little kid, SO YES I STILL HAVE BLONDE MOMENTS ALL THE TIME. Although the correlation between me being a little kid and being blonde might not match -_-“. Anyways I feel like that’s been the theme of my life so far. Always wanting to be a little kid. I never grew...
I wish I could do this in real life.
When I say someone's cute.
The next question is: “Don’t you have a girlfriend?”
DOES IT MATTER?!
Revelation.
Maybe tact and self consciousness is important. o_o. Of course this blows all my beliefs out of the water because I like being the big honest dick that I am and spewing my bullshit to everyone with no constraints, but maybe it would be wise to be self conscious. Society talks about how to shed your insecurity and self consciousness, but maybe in doing so, you alienate yourself from those that are...
Don't go home baby - GD/TOP
LoL the title doesn’t relate to the post at all, but it’s on while I’m writing this post. But I want to say, I love the friends I have now <3
Fully committing.
There’s black and white to being social. You either fully commit to hanging out with friends and stay with them throughout the semester or you don’t even try at all and hole yourself up in your room. All the conflict comes through trying to get at it, but not fully committing. In a way, it’s not even fully committing, it’s the fact that it’s hard. You just can’t...
Who am I?
Sigh. So I’m questioning myself as to why I even attempted to try to hang out with people. -_- Today was just a super bad day and it ended with spring admits trying to get me to make friends. Like wtf?
Sometimes I think I’m an extrovert and sometimes I think I’m an introvert. And I don’t know where I’m going with this post, but I seriously need to learn how to be...
CHRISTIANITY
Alright, so I went to freshman accountability for KCM (Korean Campus Mission) and it was pretty awesome. I’m Catholic, but Christianity and Catholicism is the same for me pretty much. Anyways! I’m Catholic, but Agnostic in a way. I’m very skeptical about the tenets and beliefs. For one, I think there should be different degrees of punishment, morality, and sin (I.E. killing is...
Bleah.
I feel so alone in the world when my friends drink. I’m the only one left.
Reflections.
One day ends and another one begins.
Two days wholly unrelated to each other.
You never know what to expect.
You think you know where life is going, but you really don’t.
You have a plan ahead of you, but you’re scared if might not go that way.
You want to deviate from the plan because it makes life exciting.
Yet you want to keep some order in your life.
Otherwise, life would...